Hellooooo there dear comedy lovers and readers of this here humble bloggery.
Yes, that time has come again where I'm in a very hyper mood but yet extremely at a loss on what to do, so I think 'I know, let's annoy/bore the hell out of some people on the internet' and so I update this thing.
The topic I'm going to focus on today is something that I've touched on before...I think...slightly....that many comedians seem to have a hidden 'dark' side and when I say dark side, I don't mean murderers or kitten killers or anything like that (mind you, you never know), I mean in the terms of comedians that are in real life, quite....well, miserable sods really. With all sorts of 'knock on' problems such as depressions, alcoholism, severe confidence and self esteem problems and all that 'shebang.'
And to be honest, I don't think its something I need to explain myself too much on (& no, it's not because I'm lazy and can't be doing a long ass blog...well, maybe a bit) because I think a lot of us can relate to using humour to cover up a lot of 'demons' or problems we have inside or outside of our rattling heads.
I certainly know that I have always used humour as a way of covering up my problems, my love of comedy has got me through some of the darkest days of my life....even Charlie Chaplin's wife said that watching 'Fawlty Towers' got her through the loss of her husband.
It's just what I've always done and I don't think I know many other coping mechanisms...well, apart from crying alone & filling up a wine/vodka bottle with my tears....
So I personally think that's why a lot of the 'darker...maybe depressed' people of the world go into comedy. To escape into a land where everyone laughs at you because they like you, not because they're taking the piss...and everyone adores you for making their lives that bit brighter, just like comedy has probably done for them in a past, it's like a big circle...a vicious circle of laughter (if a circle of laughter can be vicious....with teeth....)
For example, very recently (very recently only being about 2 weeks ago) I had to have my very dear, beautiful, silly, wonderful cat that I'd had since I was 6 years old (I'm 26 in about a week) put to sleep and I won't lie to you, it was one of the most heartbreaking things to have happened to me, if not THE most heartbreaking thing. Those of you who know me will know that I adore animals very much in general and that my cat's are like my children...and also that Tiggy was extremely, extremely special to me and yeah, it's not been good...at all.
But once again, humour has been getting me through, even just laughing at the antics and little ways she had has been getting me through...like when she lost her 'voice' and would just open her mouth into a silent cry when she wanted to meow (something I sadly abused for my own amusement I'm afraid to say) and like when she had me down the stairs by lying across the top step....and having me nearly crack my head open on the cooker when she chased my feet in the kitchen...& the time she peed in my school bag five minutes before I was ready for leaving for school...and the times I used to wake up and find her lying on my chest just staring at me like some mad, deranged, hairy stalker....come to think of it now, she was probably trying to kill me, but either way, she did a lot for me and brought me 18/19 years of wonderment and as you can probably tell, she was a bit of a little comedian herself.
So yeah, without straying from my original point too much, humour helps a lot of demons shut up and go hide in a cupboard in a forgotten part of your brain somewhere.
I think also, if you're quite a depressive, worried, anxious person, naturally creating this 'persona' or 'other version' of you will get you away from all that, you'll feel loved, appreciated and happy at the fact you're bringing joy and laughter to people.
I recently watched a documentary on BBC1 where popular comedienne, Miranda Hart was finding out more and paying tribute to her 'hero of comedy', the wonderful Eric Morecambe and being a huge fan of Eric myself, I already knew most of what was shown, if not more. I already knew that behind that wonderful comedy talent, comic timing and that MUCH loved man, there was quite a different side. He was shy, under confident, quiet and suffered from health anxiety brought about by a heart murmur...which coupled with the constant worrying, probably lead to his premature death.
But even Miranda herself said that there's an hidden sadness in her too, like the comedian is a mask she's learned to put up to get rid of all the sadness and insecurities in her life.
& When I was younger I used to always wonder why most comedians were often quite 'different' off screen/stage but now as I get older it's become quite self explanatory and little did I know I was a fan of comedy and made people laugh for all the same reasons, I'm a dark person when you get deep down to the bottom of me (no puns or smut intended) with quite a lot of insecurities and 'head demons' and it's nothing major, I'm not bi polar or anything like that (not to my knowledge anyway), but I do suffer from depression, I do suffer from anxiety and inferiority problems....and probably a whole load of other shite that I don't even know about myself yet.
But that's okay with me, it means I have the 'means' for comedy...you know and if it helps me write 'funny stuff', if it helps me 'perform' if it helps me 'be funny' and make people laugh then that's fine....
Yep, being completely neurotic is totally fine by me.....what??
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*SIDE ANNOUNCEMENT* Well...I was gonna say *BOTTOM ANNOUNCEMENT* since it's at the bottom of this post and not the side, but it sounds wrong, let's face it.
I am thinking of doing a video blog next time, as a one off....and I just wanted people's views on this, someone suggested it to me and I was thinking it might defeat the obvious of this being a writing venture for me and for it to be something for people to READ, but the idea has grown on me and as I say, just as a one off it might be fun and I could think of a special topic for it, in fact, I want people to SUGGEST topics for me, because to be honest, I'm beginning to run low on ideas...I know I shouldn't probably admit that, but there you go, it's me, what you gonna do?
So yeah, help me you lazy, buggering lot....should I do a video blog next time and if so, what should it be about...or what would you LIKE it to be about? Cheers me' dears. :) Tip of ze hat' till' next time!
Yes, that time has come again where I'm in a very hyper mood but yet extremely at a loss on what to do, so I think 'I know, let's annoy/bore the hell out of some people on the internet' and so I update this thing.
The topic I'm going to focus on today is something that I've touched on before...I think...slightly....that many comedians seem to have a hidden 'dark' side and when I say dark side, I don't mean murderers or kitten killers or anything like that (mind you, you never know), I mean in the terms of comedians that are in real life, quite....well, miserable sods really. With all sorts of 'knock on' problems such as depressions, alcoholism, severe confidence and self esteem problems and all that 'shebang.'
And to be honest, I don't think its something I need to explain myself too much on (& no, it's not because I'm lazy and can't be doing a long ass blog...well, maybe a bit) because I think a lot of us can relate to using humour to cover up a lot of 'demons' or problems we have inside or outside of our rattling heads.
I certainly know that I have always used humour as a way of covering up my problems, my love of comedy has got me through some of the darkest days of my life....even Charlie Chaplin's wife said that watching 'Fawlty Towers' got her through the loss of her husband.
It's just what I've always done and I don't think I know many other coping mechanisms...well, apart from crying alone & filling up a wine/vodka bottle with my tears....
So I personally think that's why a lot of the 'darker...maybe depressed' people of the world go into comedy. To escape into a land where everyone laughs at you because they like you, not because they're taking the piss...and everyone adores you for making their lives that bit brighter, just like comedy has probably done for them in a past, it's like a big circle...a vicious circle of laughter (if a circle of laughter can be vicious....with teeth....)
For example, very recently (very recently only being about 2 weeks ago) I had to have my very dear, beautiful, silly, wonderful cat that I'd had since I was 6 years old (I'm 26 in about a week) put to sleep and I won't lie to you, it was one of the most heartbreaking things to have happened to me, if not THE most heartbreaking thing. Those of you who know me will know that I adore animals very much in general and that my cat's are like my children...and also that Tiggy was extremely, extremely special to me and yeah, it's not been good...at all.
But once again, humour has been getting me through, even just laughing at the antics and little ways she had has been getting me through...like when she lost her 'voice' and would just open her mouth into a silent cry when she wanted to meow (something I sadly abused for my own amusement I'm afraid to say) and like when she had me down the stairs by lying across the top step....and having me nearly crack my head open on the cooker when she chased my feet in the kitchen...& the time she peed in my school bag five minutes before I was ready for leaving for school...and the times I used to wake up and find her lying on my chest just staring at me like some mad, deranged, hairy stalker....come to think of it now, she was probably trying to kill me, but either way, she did a lot for me and brought me 18/19 years of wonderment and as you can probably tell, she was a bit of a little comedian herself.
So yeah, without straying from my original point too much, humour helps a lot of demons shut up and go hide in a cupboard in a forgotten part of your brain somewhere.
I think also, if you're quite a depressive, worried, anxious person, naturally creating this 'persona' or 'other version' of you will get you away from all that, you'll feel loved, appreciated and happy at the fact you're bringing joy and laughter to people.
I recently watched a documentary on BBC1 where popular comedienne, Miranda Hart was finding out more and paying tribute to her 'hero of comedy', the wonderful Eric Morecambe and being a huge fan of Eric myself, I already knew most of what was shown, if not more. I already knew that behind that wonderful comedy talent, comic timing and that MUCH loved man, there was quite a different side. He was shy, under confident, quiet and suffered from health anxiety brought about by a heart murmur...which coupled with the constant worrying, probably lead to his premature death.
But even Miranda herself said that there's an hidden sadness in her too, like the comedian is a mask she's learned to put up to get rid of all the sadness and insecurities in her life.
& When I was younger I used to always wonder why most comedians were often quite 'different' off screen/stage but now as I get older it's become quite self explanatory and little did I know I was a fan of comedy and made people laugh for all the same reasons, I'm a dark person when you get deep down to the bottom of me (no puns or smut intended) with quite a lot of insecurities and 'head demons' and it's nothing major, I'm not bi polar or anything like that (not to my knowledge anyway), but I do suffer from depression, I do suffer from anxiety and inferiority problems....and probably a whole load of other shite that I don't even know about myself yet.
But that's okay with me, it means I have the 'means' for comedy...you know and if it helps me write 'funny stuff', if it helps me 'perform' if it helps me 'be funny' and make people laugh then that's fine....
Yep, being completely neurotic is totally fine by me.....what??
______________________________
*SIDE ANNOUNCEMENT* Well...I was gonna say *BOTTOM ANNOUNCEMENT* since it's at the bottom of this post and not the side, but it sounds wrong, let's face it.
I am thinking of doing a video blog next time, as a one off....and I just wanted people's views on this, someone suggested it to me and I was thinking it might defeat the obvious of this being a writing venture for me and for it to be something for people to READ, but the idea has grown on me and as I say, just as a one off it might be fun and I could think of a special topic for it, in fact, I want people to SUGGEST topics for me, because to be honest, I'm beginning to run low on ideas...I know I shouldn't probably admit that, but there you go, it's me, what you gonna do?
So yeah, help me you lazy, buggering lot....should I do a video blog next time and if so, what should it be about...or what would you LIKE it to be about? Cheers me' dears. :) Tip of ze hat' till' next time!
